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Moved

2009-11-18T01:23:00.002+08:00

dear lovely readers..

i've moved to smoovie.tumblr.com..

do relink me..

in anyway...

thanks for visiting...

really appreaciate it..

with much love,
newagedaazri...

Movin

2009-11-14T01:58:00.001+08:00

i might be moving...

soon...

stay tune for details ayite...

with much love..
newagedazri...

Knocks me down

2009-11-09T13:14:00.005+08:00

hmm...

and so here i am...

in the comforts of my own home..

i was so looking forward to post a positive entry..

but it ain't gonna happen again...

after a week of in camp training..
plus a few days of training over in Vietnam..
opportunity of winning slipped away just like that...
to cut it short..

i return back home as a failure..

thus..

this marks the end of my major competitions this 2009..
a not fairytale ending..

till then..

i will leave u readers to read the following article..
to let you guys know of what actually happened..
(pardon me as the article is in Malay)

with much love..
newagedazri...

Article from Berita Harian Singapore

6 Nov 2009

SUKAN

SUKAN DEWAN ASIA

Acara dibatal, harapan regu silat seni tidak kesampaian

Kesilapan pihak penganjur dan keputusan Wakil Teknikal Antarabangsa telah melenyapkan harapan regu silat seni Singapura bertanding dalam Sukan Dewan Asia Ketiga di Hanoi, Vietnam.

Ini kerana tiada negara lain yang menyertai acara ini dan permintaan Singapura supaya salah seorang pesilat seni regu ini dibenarkan bertanding dalam acara tunggal putera juga ditolak.

Tiga pesilat seni regu ini terdiri daripada Md Azri Abdullah, Syarif Hidayatulla Abdul Raziz dan Khairul Ariffin Sulong.

'Kami kesal kerana persiapan para pesilat ini dan perbelanjaan yang dikeluarkan untuk ke temasya sukan menjadi sia-sia,' kata Ketua Kontinjen Silat Singapura, Sheik Alauddin Yacoob, menerusi panggilan jauh semalam.

'Kami telah mengesahkan lebih awal penyertaan dalam acara regu ini dan pihak penganjur hanya memberitahu ia tidak dipertandingkan kerana kurang penyertaan selepas kami tiba di Vietnam.

'Kami sedia bertolak ansur dengan meminta salah seorang pesilat seni kami dibenarkan menyertai acara tunggal putera yang disertai oleh pesilat daripada enam negara lain.

'Kami amat menaruh harapan dan telah memilih Azri untuk bertanding dalam acara tunggal putera ini

'Tetapi selepas perbincangan hangat, permintaan kami diserahkan kepada undian di kalangan negara-negara peserta dan ia gagal dihuraikan apabila keputusan undian ialah empat menerima dan empat menolak.

'Dengan kedudukan undi terikat ini, maka keputusan terakhir di tangan Wakil Teknikal Antarabangsa, yang memutuskan menolak permintaan Singapura itu,' tambahnya sambil menarik perhatian bahawa Wakil Teknikal Antarabangsa, yang dilantik oleh Persekutuan pencak Silat Antarabangsa (Persilat), ialah Johari Mokti dari Singapura.

:(

and by the way...
good luck to the sea game-rs..
my prayers are with you all...

Boomz

2009-10-25T22:36:00.003+08:00

hey readers...

for your info...

from tomorrow onwards..

exactly at 8.30am..

i'll embark on a journey..

an intense one...

a journey that will either make or break...

i'll be going through the in camp "focus" training for exactly four days..
before leaving for Hai Doung, Vietnam...

with only four days left..
i'll have to polish my routine..
make sure that they are consistent..
start focusing for the competition itself..
and of course..
to remain positive and push aside every negativity...

furthermore...

since this is my last major competition for year 2009..
and before i serve the nation..(next June probably)..
i am going all out for my GOLD...

i wish to end year 2009 with a good note..
and of course with a boom..
or should i say boomz...

winning this gold will be like a belated birthday present for me..

dear readers...

i really am in need for your beautiful prayers..
hopefully with them...
the fight for GOLD will be much easier..

God's willing..
He will grant my wish...

to my team...
let's go there and make it happen...

with much love..
newagedazri...

I'm Back

2009-10-19T00:20:00.005+08:00

heyyy...

i'm back readers...

sorry for my absence for the past two weeks...

even though i've not been updating...
life has been rather great though...

on 12th october..
i celebrated my birthday with an injury...
massive swelling on foot ligaments..
was asked to put on a "boot cast" for a week..
to speed up the recovery process...
but...
me being stubborn...
i took it off on the second day...
let me assure you it is getting better from the outside...

from inside....

hmm...

let's wait for the review which gonna take place this coming Thursday...

and soo...

i've just returned from JB with the kakis..
went around town to look for ray-ban(s) and head porter...
best part of all..
there was this two minah whom we saw at the first mall that we went to...

surprisingly...

we saw them again at the next mall which was kilometers away from the first one...
guess she must be stalking us or something...
i wouldn't be shock if they were to add us up on facebook..

ouhhh...

and by the way...

school officially starts tomorrow...
final year...
final term...
final lap...
i really hope to make it good this time around...
i mean no more fooling around...
but more of skipping classes...
i like it like that...

once school is over this april..
i will look forward to serve the nation...

anddddd....

if things go well i would want to fly to Australia or maybe U.S to study..

till then..

with much love..
newagedazri...

+ p.s maybe i do deserve silent treatments...

Chào tạm biệt

2009-10-02T00:20:00.005+08:00

and so yaaaa...

i'm back from meeting the Nguyen-s...

great roomie i had you know...

whenever i needed him...

he would always be there sitting in front of the refrigerator..
watching tv..

right homie??

fun bugger to sleep with...
hahahaha...

that sounds so gay-ish...

next...

it was even more wonderful learning tiếng Việt using the iPhone application..

put to great use with those air stewardess...

for now...

that is all i have to blog about my trip...

there is so much to talk about...
but i just don't wish to brag it here...

because you'll hate me if i were to do so....

p.s...
shout-outs for different individuals..
1) please be direct, and don't expect me to think...
2) i hate your smile...
3) stop claiming, start living...
4) i feel bad for you bro...

with much love..
newagedazri....

Forgive me

2009-09-18T00:18:00.005+08:00

since eid is around the corner..
let me take this golden opportunity..
before it is too late..
to say out everything that has been in me for quite awhile..

to that special someone..

bro..

i know that you may or may not read this..
but..
i mean..
this is the only way for me at this moment in time..

i just can't afford to put up a brave front..
to face and say sorry to you..

each time time i reflect upon every jokes and motivations we shared..
flashbacks occur..

soon..

that got me feeling guilty...

i guess i was just too blind to see the repercussions of my own actions..
i am kinda living a life with regrets..
i sincerely admit that i was selfish and wrong..
you just don't deserve what i did...

just so you know..
i am on my knees right now..
begging for forgiveness..
i can't afford to lose someone..
who's not just a friend..

but..

more to a brother to me..

please...

bro...

forgive me...

with much regrets..
newagedazri..

The Appeal Factor

2009-09-07T00:08:00.005+08:00

hmmm...

life has been hectic lately..
trainings after trainings on weekdays..
with each sessions ending as early as 11pm...
it may seem strenous...
but..
i like it this way..
because i choose to be in the team...
so good or bad...
i'll have to go through..
not for anything...
but for glory and pride...

it is me against the world...

other than trainings...
i have been spending alot of my time..
making love..
intimate ones...
with Sexy-Wendy..
my g-shock watch..
she's making me love purple colour by day man...

and sooo..

yesterday was so memorable i must say..
it was my first time being at the bazaar..
since the start of Ramadan..
there's nothing great actually..
usual stuffs and people..
nothing new and exciting..

nevertheless..

after yesterday...
i just realized that i appeal to the masses..
and that includes she-males...
i am "that" appealing you know...

she-im was like trying to promote him-er-self to me..
in other words...

soliciting...

that is all for now...
till then...

with much love..
newagedazri...

Holy Month

2009-08-23T21:25:00.008+08:00

it is so amazing people...
i stayed at home over the whole weekends..

i must say that..
my time at home was well spent..

waking up late in the evening..
late as in 3pm...
facebook-ing..
blogskipping..
downloading movies..

by the way..
my attachment or SIP at Singapore Turf Club is ending soon..
suddenly i just wish that it would never end..

like real..

hahah..

i mean put aside..
the waking up early in the morning..
and the long journey towards Kranji..

the people there are so fun to be with..
that very place has taught me many wonderful stuffs..
that i truly feel couldn't be found elsewhere..

everything that has a beggining..
has an end..

never mind..
i'll just cherish the knowledge and memories i got from there..
it is more exciting with horses.. you know....

before i forget..
the holy month of Ramadan is back..
let me take this opportunity to extend my warmest wishes to the Muslims in S'pore and around the world..

for the non-muslim readers..
allow me to share what Ramadan is all about..

Ramadan is the month in which Muslims believe that the Holy Quran was revealed to the Prophet Muhammad..
it is therefore..
the time where Muslims reflect upon wisdom and guidance that comes with faith..
not forgetting the responsibility that human beings have for one another and to God..
it is also a festive time where families gather and meals are shared..

Ramadan is also a time of intense devotion and reflection..
Muslims fast during the day and perform Terawih prayers in the night..
bringing themselves closer to God
reciting and listening to the entire Quran over the course of the month..

i wish every Muslims a blessed month as you welcome the beginning of Ramadan..
may God's peace be upon you

till then..

with much devotion..
newagedazri...

Batman And Pinoys

2009-08-16T23:22:00.004+08:00

hmm...
so ya...
i am finally back here posting..
haha...
nothing great or exciting has happened..
except that..

i've found a new love..
her name is "sexy-wendy"
(p.s a watch)
hehe...
ooh..
i just can't bear to leave her..
even for a few second..
honeymoon period i must say..
hahaha...

the way she moves right..
makes me wanna groove you know..
and..
she even look super sleek and elegant...

by the way..
i was at town area just now..
specifically walking down the orchard road..
doing some retail therapy..
and guess what..

for once...
i felt as though i was in another country...
a foreigner i must say...
no offense but..

gosh...

"Pinoys" were all over the Ngee Ann City area...
drinking..
dancing happily to the songs of the street busker..
who coincidentally happen to be their kind..
and to make things worse..
some were even smooching with their "Batman"..
home away from home or what..
hahaha...

okay readers..
that is all for now
i'll be back with a better entry..
i need to spend more time with Love...
hahaha..

till then..

with much joy..
newagedazri...

Demonstrations

2009-08-02T23:04:00.006+08:00

ermmm...

so ya...
i am finally back from one of the World Heritage Cities, Melacca, M'sia..
allow me to briefly describe what happened..

over the weekends..
me and the rest of the SIL-ART team had some demonstrations over there..
three demos in a day in total..

the first one was a total flop yet it was still funny..
imagine you are in the arena..
waiting eagerly to perform..
when suddenly..
the wrong track was played..

we had to skip the new routine..
and continued with the old one..

it was all thanks to me..
for burning the wrong track to the CD..
thousand apologies mates..

soon after the morning flop...
we returned back to the hotel...
luckily coach was not angry...
we even joked together about the reactions on everyone's face when the track was played..

while everyone went to rest and did their stuffs..
i was busy re-writing the CD with the right track..
this time around..
i made sure that everyone was there to witness me burning the right track..
when the track was finally ready..
we began to prepare for our evening demo and headed for the performing ground again...

hmm...
the evening demo was great...
certainly better than the morning one..
but still...
we weren't up to standards...
the sun was not on our side...
scorching malayan heat i should say...

last but not least...
it was time for the final show of the trip...
with much rest and motivational videos from Silat.tv...
we psyched ourselves up..
wanting to prove our individual best...
not to the crowd...
but to ourselves..

at the backstage of the Grand Ballroom in the trade center..
we warmed ourselves up with the new routine over and over again...
not forgetting with regular jokes in between...
and soon...
we were back on stage..
performing..
one by one steps of the new routine accompanied with the right track was completed..
everyone was so enjoying their time on stage that they began to step things up...
once the routine was completed..
we went ahead and took a bow...
that was when we received great cheers and applause from the audience...

even though...
overall the last demonstration was the best..
we still manage to pin point some minor errors in our routine which are very important...

next day...
was touring time...
went around the city...
in and out of shops..
and indulge ourselves with the local delights..
after all of that was done..
we packed and made our way back to S'pore...

that was all for the trip..
next up..
9 Aug..
another demonstration..
this time at the museum..
do make yourself free and come down with your loved ones to support us...

with much love..
newagedazri...

Better In Time

2009-07-20T01:29:00.000+08:00

A troubled soul..
Choking on her dreams..
Listening to her cries..
And all her silent screams....

Feeling so wretched and compelled..
Finding solace..
In personal deceptions..
Upon the brink...
Of futile conceptions...

Climbing walls of insanity..
Riding waves of despair..
Not wanting to hide....
But...
She needs someone who she's able to share....

Holding back to her tears..
Loving him so dear..
Living for tomorrow..
Cherishing..
Appreciating yester-years....

Alas...
Time will heal her broken pride..
Towards the sunrise...
Her heart will glide..

newagedazri...

Gratitude

2009-07-19T00:37:00.005+08:00

hmm..

i promised my love to get her a bag for this month's pay..
therefore..
went out with best gurl-fren to look for her bag..
entered shops after shops..
seeked high and low for a suitable bag..

finally..
after an hour of searching..
settled for this limited edition Bonia bag

thereafter..
headed for "neng nyno" session with the usuals..
the kupang-ens..
the two longans...
their gurlfrens...
the advisor and jumper...

was craving for meat..
thus ordered this dish called "mussukkah"
beef tenderloin served with gravy..
super nice..
delightfully gratifying..
and the after meal desert was splendid i must say..
heavenly mouthwatering..

after all the sheesha-ing..
sharing crappy jokes..
playing games..
headed for home...

right at the doorstep..
handed mum her bag...
her eyes began to sparkle as she opens the packaging..
the way she said "thank you" was heart warming..

with that bag..
it is the only way for me to show my immense appreciation and recognition towards her..
furthermore..
all this while she has been tolerating my nonsense...
i have been a mischievous boy..
yet she still loves me...

so mum..
here i am on my knees..
"ibu...i love you"

till then..

with much love..
newagedazri...

Bereavement

2009-07-15T22:26:00.004+08:00

hmm..
this may be odd..
but i really need to blog today..

the past two days have been really a killer..
i mean personal training and diet have stepped up..
trainings are now more heart thumping..
the diet program is more stricter now..
i am only taking in just enough calories for me to survive the training...

i guess..
the quote "sweat till you drop"..
is kinda true for me right now..
i mean..
each time when i run..
i could feel as though death was near me..
an inch or two maybe..
irregular breathing patterns..
inconsistent heartbeat...

just moments ago..
at a major road junction..
on my way home from a killer workout..
i didn't know i was crossing the road..
till a kind samaritan pulled me away..
till now i am unsure what was into me..
daydreaming??
crossing a road without even looking out for the oncoming traffic..
if not..
someone else..
other than me..
would be blogging about me dying in a quite "tragic" way..
God...
WHAT WAS INTO ME...

am i going too hard on myself..
i am starting to focus for my upcoming competition already..
a major one..
SEA GAMES i should say..
but...
my physical and mental state is deteriorating..

i really crave to compete in the upcoming sea games..
i really aspire to perform up to my personal best for it..
so that..
even if i lose..
i would walk out the ring with my chin up..

FUCK...
i want this so much...
i want SEA GAMES to "happen" for me..
my urge..
desire...
is burning..

i am in a state of confusion..
agitation..
should i go easy on myself..

hmm...
i dare say this..
it all boils down to me..
it is my race...
it is me against myself..
it is me against my choice..
it is me against the world....

till then..

newagedazri...

Superstar

2009-07-05T23:31:00.006+08:00

ermmm...

here we go..
weekends was a blast...

first..
party with my homies...
at --- ...
we sure partied like a rockstar asswipes!...

grooving with the party people..
moving according to the beat..
bringing the roof to the ground on the dance floor..
i just wished that the night would never end..

but...

too bad..
it ended..

next..
lived the life of a celebrity....

performed twice in a day..
at two separate locations..

the applause given..
all that rushing and changing of clothes..
made me feel like a true superstar..

hmmm...

after all that partying and performing...
needed some retail therapy..

thus..
headed to town with "kupang-engs" to get stuffs..
their presence made the therapy session even better...

hahahahah...

till then...

with much happiness..
newagedazri...

There It Goes

2009-06-28T21:43:00.003+08:00

erm..

i guess i had to do what i did..
no regrets..
i promised..
that is where it belongs..
having it around my neck doesn't make me feel good at all..
you may say i am stupid..
brainless..
dopey..
you may say i am being unappreciative here..
ingrate..
self-centered..

but who cares...
without it now..
it makes me feel chipper..
throwing it away shows that i am gonna start afresh..
leaving those negative issues and past behind..
time for me to move on....

with much adulation..
newagedazri..

Blame On Me

2009-06-21T21:14:00.002+08:00

its kinda true..

sometimes you win..
sometimes you lose..

but..
fugggg lah..
i'll just accept this failure..
my performance wasn't that great to the eyes of jurors..
furthermore...
i think i am getting use to this..

its been two freaking years..
and..
one fucking point...

i guess..
it wasn't my day again..
like..
God didn't want me to win..
maybe if i won..
i would be arrogant..
audacious..
cocky..
disdainful..
egoistic..
and pretentious..

nevertheless..
God always has a plan...

oh well..
i'll hold on to faith..

it is back to the drawing board..
i'll need to refocus and re-strategies..

to those who have showed me endless support..
i thank you yet again..
really appreciate it..
sorry i failed you guys..

with much grief..
newagedazri...

Life

2009-06-08T23:06:00.005+08:00

hmmm...

i truly feel that life is so fair...

why...

its simply because when you lose something...
you'll tend to get something better in return..
or maybe..
at times...
when you lose one...
you'll gain two...

that is so great....

furthermore..

in life...
some rain must fall...
i've heard that being played too much..
too often i should say...

but..
there is always a lovely rainbow...
after a huge storm...
this is to remind us...
that God has not forgotten...
as..
at the end of the day...
our efforts would certainly go a long way.....

with much love..
newagedazri...

it could be you

2009-06-05T22:59:00.003+08:00

it has been awhile..
since i last did this...
but allow me to give another shot...

Am I sleepwalking..
Or is this just a dream..
Am I strong..
Or is this more than what I think...

From the day that I saw you..
I knew that I want to be with you..
Because the chemistry felt so real..
And certainly true...

Took a picture of you mentally..
Feeling you're meant for me..
Knowing that you're the symbol..
Of what a true woman should be...

As I look into your eyes..
Especially when you smile..
I know you're an angel..
That makes me want to go wild...

As you begin to teach me how to love..
I am going to give you my heart on a string..
We'll share the air that I breathe..
And I'll sleep with my eyes wide open..
Not wanting to miss a thing....

fuck

2009-05-30T14:19:00.004+08:00

i know i was wrong..
i admit that..
i am at fault..
as guilty as i can be....

i saw it coming...
but i didn't expect it to come from you...
the one i laid my trust with...

guess it is true...
the one you're closest with...
is your...
greatest enemy..
enemy of the state i should say...

hmm...
it is the right time now...
to face the music...
the repercussions of my action...

p.s...
yesterday i was at highest point of my life...
but..
today you had to pull me down....

till then..
with much hate and disgust...
newagedazri...

Appreciates You

2009-05-18T21:35:00.004+08:00

hmm..

i would like to extend my greatest gratitude..
to all of my friends, families and enemies...

your prayers and simple wishes turned my dreams into a reality...
this may be just a stepping stone for me...
into attaining my ultimate goal...
or should i say GOLD...
but it is..
one hell of a leap i took...

thank you so much for making me believe in myself...
in one way or another..
your guidance..
advices..
tips...
2 years of drought has finally ended...
and i guess its time for me to "keep up the tempo"..
and choose my destiny...

the medal that is with me right now...
would be be a morale booster for me...
i really hope that it will elevate my confidence..
as well as make me train harder for the betterment...

since winning comes with a big responsibility..
here i am...
making a promise to myself...
i...
smoovie...
would be at my best-est behavior..
to remain as humble and low profile as long as i can...

next up...
national competition...

till then..

with much love and appreciation...
newagedazri..

Love You

2009-04-15T23:32:00.004+08:00

hmm...
years passed...
we are born into this world full of dreams...

she...
the one who suffered for nine long months..
ensuring that her sons are fit..
like any other kids..
free from illnesses..

she...
the one who nurtures..
education with affection...
showing continuous love...
care..
concern..

now..
she has one beautiful wish...
that...
we never place her second in our heart....

happy birthday ibu...
thank you for always being there for me...
thank you for being my girlfriend at home...
thank you for everything...
may you be blessed with good health and good wealth...
i...
love...
you....

with much love..
newagedazri...

Holding On

2009-04-09T22:21:00.003+08:00

hmmm.....

let me kick it to you right quick man....

some do say that..

holding on...

is what makes you strong...

but..

at some point of time....

it takes a whole lot of strength...

to just let it go...

and move on......

readers...

what do you think...

tag with your opinion aite...

till then...

with much love..
newagedazri...

A Diamond Or Us

2009-04-02T00:05:00.005+08:00

hmm...

you were about to fall of the cliff...
to you...
it was the highest cliff ever existed...
but...
luckily..
we grasped your hand...
managed to get a hold of you..
gave our best..
to pull you back up..
away from danger and agony...

but...

as we were trying..
you managed to cling on to a piece of rock...
probably a diamond..

now..

with that diamond..
knowing that you'll able to survive without us...
you're pulling us down..

till then..

with no regret at all and many apologies..
newagedazri...

Here It Goes

2009-03-29T20:27:00.003+08:00

hmmm...

the ride back home was the sex..

we rode our babies in the heavy pouring rain..

the raindrops went extremely hard on us..

as though..
poking pins onto our body...

visibility level was zero..
all we could see were..
red colour lights from cars and traffic lights...

then......

a mishap took place..

one of our crank arm and pedal gave way..
it flew from the side to the middle of the road..

luckily..

thank god..

there were no approaching traffic...

we stopped at the side of the road..

as they assessed the situation...

like a hero from the Disaster and Rescue Team...

i went to retrieve it....

fix it back on..

continued our extreme ride..

overall...

it was fun and wet...

hahaha...

til then..

with much love..
newagedazri...

Two Months From Today

2009-03-24T23:43:00.007+08:00

hmm...

after....
looking for the cheapest flight ticket..
walking in and out of the travel agency..
waiting for the confirmation of travel visa for weeks..
talking and arguing with the customer service provider..
knowing that the flight only allows one luggage..

finally..

going hard against each obstacle....

he's on his way back home to Roermond, Holland...

now....

we're sure gonna miss him..

like..

so much...

because..

who's gonna hit my forehead when i "salam" him..
who's gonna steal my diet food..
who's gonna make funny and idiotic expressions..
who's gonna treat us Roti Prata after trainings..
who's gonna chill with us at Mukmin before gym sessions..
who's gonna do another stuntman act with us..
who's gonna motivate me when i am down and apathetic..

simply..

who's gonna say those words...
or...
actions that make me and the rest smile..

but never mind..
we would be here..
waiting and praying for his safety...

to him..
hope you have fun being a "papa cute"..
you owe us a "dhalsim" move eh...

till then..

with much love..
newagedazri...

(p.s another something great happened today)

Pardon Me

2009-03-17T21:51:00.004+08:00

today's post may be a subjective and sensitive issue..
so pardon me readers....

here i am writing this to let out what has been inside me...

the thing is..
this matter have been affecting me..
or rather us..
every now and then...

we being treated second class..
looked down upon..

occasionally when we kindly help out..
we don't even get a "thank you"..

even though we did it out of our own willingness..
their little words of appreciation would go a long way..
anyone would certainly feel good with that..
is it so hard to say "thank you"...

we just don't get it...

furthermore...

they are always waiting for us to make a mistake..
waiting for every little chance to "eff" us..
up..down..left..right..
or..
when we are right and innocent..
they would cunningly twist our side of stories..
to make us be at fault..

honestly...

let me say this..
we sincerely apologize..
if we have made any mistakes which caused you to treat us like these..
we still want to make things work...

till then...

with much love..
newagedazri...

Not A Virgin Anymore

2009-03-08T18:03:00.004+08:00

hmmm...
if last week we went on road...
today...
was off road time...

nestled in thick..
lush greenery of Tampines park..
lies a new gravelly mountain biking trail...

the repeated climbs..
unexpected "U" corners..
"s" down slopes..
multiple- switchbacks on the "teletubby knoll "..
jungle section with obstacles..

makes it a track suitable for professionals..
and getting-injured-junkies....
hahaha...

was riding at a high speed..
and was intensely focused....
but...
nearly lost my fatherhood..
as the front tire got stuck in the mud..
as we were going down slopes...
fell thrice as i didn't expect those sharp "U" corners to come...
luckily escaped with only minor scratches on my leg...

went home with my Gary Fisher covered in mud..
it looked like a tank coming back from war...
took me two whole hours to clean it..
and be tuned for another ride...

overall it was "extremely" fun...
as i felt the adrenalin rushing through my veins...
and i was an off road virgin too...
hahaha...
i would certainly wanna go there again..
but i'll have to find someone who is kind enough..
to scrub my bike after a ride...
hahah...

till then...

with much love..
newagedazri...

School's Out

2009-03-01T21:24:00.006+08:00

hmm...

yesterday...
was a great start for my school holidays...

19 "soul ridas" went for the round island ride..

against the....

gushing winds blowing against our faces..

cold shivering..

consistent awful cramps..

fear of not completing..

tube bursting..

empty stomachs..

numb fingers..

super steep long never-ending hills..

squeaky footwear..

sudden knockout..

we managed to cycle through...

bedok
marine parade
fort road
kallang
esplanade drive
newton
vivo city
keppel
redhill
pasir panjang
telok blangah
west coast
queenstown
commonwealth
bukit timah
clementi
jurong east
boon lay
pioneer
choa chu kang
lim chu kang
old lim chu kang
jalan bahar
jalan bahtera
kranji
woodlands
mandai
yishun
yio chu kang
seletar
jalan kayu
sengkang
hougang
old tampines road
tampines
bedok......

and completed a 100+/- km ride...

even though it was super tiring...

however to me..

it was the best-est ride ever..

because...

it takes a truck load of ego..
a pinch of fitness..
some pep-talk..
plus a Gary Fisher Hard-Tail bike..
to beat an egoistic guy with a road bike...

TWICE...

a job well done....
hahaha

till then...
stay tune for my next update..

with much love..
newagedazri....

p.s u still owe me men's pocky dark chocolate

without a doubt

2009-02-19T16:27:00.003+08:00

ermmm...

is this what i wanted...
is this what i wished for...

does it pay to be smoove...

i mean..
i can have all the friends in the world..
be acquainted with all the girls that yearn for..

but are they really my friend..
someone who i can..
turn to...
talk to...
or...

are they the ones who's gonna stab me from the back..
with a pen...
so that i would die a slow death...

it just seems that each time i got familiar with someone...
i would simply forget the other...
the ones..
who have been there for me..
irregardless of situation..

at times when problems do arise..
or u're facing one..
i stayed back..
and kept quiet..
i just couldn't agree with what u're doing...
i don't wish to state my case..
there isn't any point for us to argue...
arguing is in fact a way to please our self-satisfaction...

why does this have to happen to me?
is it because of my negligence?
why is it so hard to show that i appreciate?

i still need them though...
i just can't afford to lose them...

friends..
team-mates..
partners-in-crime...

i may have ignored you..
kept a distant from you...

here i am..
sincerely without any doubt..
i wanna say..
thank you..
for all the great things that u've done..
sorry that i've been such an asshole towards u.....
may God bless u with the greatest gifts ever...

till then..

with much love...
newagedazri....

Smoovie

2009-02-18T00:28:00.004+08:00

hmm..
i'm taking a short break from mugging..
that is why i am here blogging..
what a rap...
hahaha...

hmm..
anyways..

it seems that i'm getting smoother..
as day passes by..
it is fun you know..
getting to know new "friends"...

but..
the thing is..
at times..
i do go hard on them..
without even realising..
i scare the shit out of them...
forgive me for that..
i have no underlying intentions..
i swear...

i guess..
being smoove is not all good..
right?..

i mean...
even though what we say..
may sound ethically right..
but we won't know..
how are they feeling...
till they...
tell you..
remind you..
or worse still..
ignore you...

hmm...
that is really something..
for me to ponder...
however the-smoothoperator in me won't just die..
i'll just be more tactful from now on..

till then..

with much love..
newagedazri..
smoovie...
the-smoovewonder....

M.I.A

2009-02-09T23:12:00.003+08:00

hey lovely readers..

bad news..
smoovie would not be updating his blog for the time being...
he needs to mug..
focus...
and..
study really smart for his semestral exams...
thus...
no stories about..
smoovie..
the boy wonder..
for the time being...

hehehe...

however..
don't u worry much...
smoovie will remain smoove as he is now...
hahaha.....

till then..

with much love..
newagedazri...

Enraged

2009-01-24T22:47:00.002+08:00

apologize me for the explicit content....

because...

right now..

at this moment..

i am..
fucking pissed...

have never felt this enraged for a long time...

i am...
so fucking annoyed...

that it is raging intensely in me..

counting down..

waiting to blow up and go ballistic...

i am....
so fucking infuriated fuckface...

don't make an effort to ask....
as..

you might just be the fucking victim......

till then..

with much rage..
newagedazri...

Is It You

2009-01-18T22:42:00.006+08:00

hmm...
yesterday had so much of fun with the happy goobers...
haha..
we were lost looking for national library..
luckily we managed to "feel" for directions...
we failed looking for new galfrens too..
guess we were there at the wrong time..

as night falls..
we were sitting and sheesha-ing...
yet again..
yesterday no secrets..
but it was "no neng nyno"..
sheesha was so smooth..

was home early to finish my assignment..
but i procrastinated..
went to chalet...
haiz...
i was a centimeter(1cm) close to another drink..
managed to hold on to myself..
sprite...
orange juice...
xxxxx...
haiz....
i promised that it was my last..
no more...
once was enough...

p.s...
what does it mean if i kept seeing your look-a-likes...
hmm...

is..
it...
you....

till then...

with much love..
newagedazri

Live Your Life

2009-01-11T21:21:00.003+08:00

ermm..

yesterday was the so called...
"secrets out night" for us..
most of our dark secrets were laid across...
some were surprising..
some were kind of heart-pain..
hahaha...
nevertheless..
now they understand why i am..
the officially realest..
point..
blank..
period...
tHe-sMoOVe OpeRAtor....

hmm...

after all that chat and sheesha-ing
six of us, attacked and finished two large murtabak..
in less than five minutes...
i'd even dragged a can of coca-cola in two minutes...
because of that..
both my brain and throat froze...
haha...

at the end of the day...
the most important lesson learnt was...
to live our life..
enjoy those little things..
appreciate them..
and the big things will take care of themselves...

to you...

get a grip of yourself..
you're strong..
you have us too..
there are many other things for you to think about..
don't let this waste your chance to live..

you are what you think you are..
you are what you want to be...

much love..
newagedazri...

Hangover

2009-01-01T19:32:00.005+08:00

hahah...
where should i start...
hmm..
haha...

it wasn't as fun as i expected..
cuz maybe there wasn't enough crazy people..
haha..
fireworks were great..
but it can't beat..
those during the fireworks festival recently..
there were even flares from nearby vessels..
as though signaling for help..
or should i say SOS...
they didn't honk their horns this time around..
super cam-whoring too..
coolest dope shit ever...
haha..

but nevertheless..
it..
was...
a.....
hangover yaw......

happy new year all..
peace..

much love..
newagedazri...

Brother

2008-12-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

hmm...
today will be a really short...
but a meaningful one..

ermm..

bro....

take great care of yourself aite..
have lots of fun while you're in Dubai..

please...

hurry back home okie..
i am starting to miss you already....

much love..
newagedazri...

Closing Chapter of The Year 2008

2008-12-24T01:19:00.005+08:00

haiz.....
what a way to end the year 2008..
i fell just now...
during our ride towards Sentosa from Changi..

with the wind going against my face..
i was speeding...
it was a joyful feeling...

as i approached a corner..
i didn't slow down...
one thing ran straight into my mind..
"...sial ar..aku mesti jatuh nie..."

then the worst case scenario really happened..
when i made the turn..
there was a puddle of water...
with some sediments ahead of me..
i couldn't slow down in time...

my rear tyre gave way..
it flipped side ways..
i landed on my right arm...
skidded...
luckily..
i managed to break my fall..
or else...
God knows what might have happened to me...

when i recovered..
the first thing i did...
was to check my bike...
haiz...
my saddle and pedal is damaged..
then i checked myself...
my wrist was kinda numb...
shin swelled abit...

on a lighter note...
i learnt a few valuable lessons..
glove is very important...
slow down when approaching corners...
especially if the surface is wet...

hmm...
i survived the whole ride though..
strongest rider still...
hahaha....

next up...
hmmm...
New Year Eve..
where should i go..
any suggestions?..

till then...

much love..
newagedazri...

Got Milk

2008-12-20T16:33:00.005+08:00

hmm...
guess what people...
i am now the self proclaimed..
"best milkshaker" in the world...
hahaha...
you just provide me any ingredients...
and i'll mix everything up...
add some milk and ice...
and....
tada.....
"best milkshake" you'd ever tasted....

its damn tasty and mouth watering...
not forgetting its healthy..
at an average it provides only 300 calories..
a nutritious..
energy-packed snack for any part of the day..
it also makes a great meal in itself..
when you're busy and on the go..

all time favourites are...
chocolate brownie milkshake..
strawberry-nana milkshake..
apple pie milkshake..
mi-vanilla-lo milkshake..
cococabana milkshake....

dial 9-Got milk...
to order your "best milkshake"..
i promise...
you won't regret...
i'd bet that you'll look forward for more..
"best milkshake".. everyday..
for its energizing rewards..
satisfaction guaranteed..

much love..
newagedazri...

Body Beauty

2008-12-19T22:15:00.003+08:00

oh my freaking god..
i found a new love...
and her name is baby anne..

she's so elegant..
smooth...
well endowed..
hee...

hmm...
what a week though...
i am back pumping myself...
bulking up...
pushing and pulling hard...
all in the name of "body beauty"..
self satisfaction and ego played a major part..
in realizing my dream...

i have till 24th Dec 2008..
to re-develop my assets..
it needs to be..
round..
hard..
and defined...

so ya..
rummaged all the secrets...
the formulas..
training programs..
diet recipes..
and of course..
the law of attraction....
haha...

but wait...
what do i get from you in return?
hmm...
i'll just wait..
train..
show..
and see...
hehehe...

p.s...

i guess denial is the worst crime after all..
hmm..
i'm ready when both of you are..
family planning eh?
hehe...
good luck....

much love..
newagedazri...

You Can't Win

2008-12-14T23:46:00.005+08:00

ermmm...
if you..
argue..
rankle..
and..
contradict..
you may achieve victory sometimes..
but..
it will be an empty one...
as..
you'll never get..
your opponent's good will....

much love..
newagedazri..

Publicize

2008-12-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

hmm...
hello there..
we might not know each other..
but i appreciate you for entering...

on this vary day..
i've made my decision..
i'm gonna make my page public...
enjoy reading it people..

by the way..
this should be the one and only post...
you gonna read..
if you can't accept what i have to say...
i may..
at times be insensitive...
towards your feelings...

oh spamming...
you just can't resist me..
can't you..

haters can only hate..
those things they can't have..
those things they can't afford..
or..
the people they can't be...
but too bad...

well for now...
i shall keep my page public...
so that you can check on me...
till then...

much love..
newagedazri...

Mercy

2008-12-08T15:39:00.006+08:00

it was so white...
young...
as it struggles..
it was staring right into my eyes...
as i start my prayers...
tears streams down my face...
i could feel as though it was begging me for mercy...
the pain...
i couldn't do anything...
it part of me and the religion i chose to believe in..

Allah (swt) says in the Quran...
"..It is neither their meat nor their blood, that reaches Allah, it is your piety that reaches Him.."
(Al Qur'an, Ch:22 v:37)

much love..
newagedazri...

Learning How To Smile Again

2008-12-08T01:34:00.001+08:00

hmm..
ppl say that i've changed...
for the worse...
i have my reasons for doing so..
it would only hurt them if i were to tell them the reasons...

ppl are just hating me...
i don't care..
when i was the type of person who put other feelings in front of me...
ppl just kept stepping on my head...
why should i think of them...
when they don't think of me...

now...
i get agitated easily...
i'm too critical on things...
mood swings...
i'm loud.....

i need to start to think of those who care...
but...
do they really care..
or they are...
simply..
"sweet nothings"

i've been going through quite a lot day after day...
ups...
downs....
my smile has been a masquerade all along...

i know at times i do suck a lot..
but now i am here pleading for forgiveness...
i may not have thought of your feelings...
but have you ever think of mine...
what i went through...
i have reasons...
if you ever have thought that i've changed...
can't you at least tell me...
and not go around...
telling everyone i've changed...
but let's just forget about that...

you guys may have hated me ever since..
i was too selfish...
cold...
i admit that...
i would need a lot of time..
alone...
nothing is too drastic...
i need to change...
mindset especially....
for now...
you guys deserve to be angry ...
be mad with me all you want...
because i deserve it....
sorry.....
i am going to change for the better...

much love..
newagedazri....

Tears of Joy

2008-12-05T10:10:00.001+08:00

tears of joy...
streams down my face..
closed my eyes..
began to pray..
another given chance..
to make it right..
one wish has been granted..
finally..

i've made u hurt before..
now..
i'm ready to make right for all the wrong i did..
my immature actions were to blame for your insecurity..
lets try to build on us...
cause it been a while..
and you have been on my mind..
constantly...

much love..
newagedazri...

Fucked

2008-12-01T23:45:00.001+08:00

ermm..

jumped...

tucked...

turned...

landed...

fell...

twisted...

sprained...

injured...

regretted.....

erm...
i guess this way I'd forever remember..
how to land properly..
or...
how to break my fall properly...
i guess this is part of the risk i took...
to impress.....

win some...
lose some.....

much love..
newagedazri...

Chaka Chaka Bang Bang..

2008-11-30T21:10:00.001+08:00

yesterday..
it was kinda fun and enjoyable though...
after so long.....
had the chance to meet and greet the Jinz Empire..
especially my partners in crime...
the twins...

ate a KFC meal with tons of chilli sauce..
learnt how to make a beautiful rose with a piece of tissue paper..
walked a whole round just to get to Keppel Bay..
laughed our ass out..
quality cam-whoring session..
chilled under the starry lit sky..
with a surprised fireworks display..
indulged in chocolate fudge brownie..
and finally..
a free ride home in a friend's car...

that was how i enjoyed myself yesterday with the Jinz Empire....
hehe...

p.s..
i saw it coming..
neglected the signs..
please forgive me...
i had to stay true to myself..
the truth was the only way out..
it might hurt u in every other way..
but...
it is for ur best...
if i were to lie to u yesterday..
u might just get even more confused...
just know that...
i wanna start things anew...
let us be friends......

A Matter Of Time

2008-11-26T08:15:00.001+08:00

hmm...
let this be just a short entry...

one day...
everyone on this earth will have to face it..
it is just a matter of time..

it is the irreversible cessation of life..

it is a complete change in status of a living entity..

it is.
it was..
it will be...

death is death....
as an end to itself.....

it is just a matter of time..

much love...
newagedazri

I Couldn't Bear

2008-11-24T23:04:00.002+08:00

hmm...
what a day...
it was a morning rush..
received a call...
questions soon began to fill my mind..
reminiscing of the past

erm..
he was at a critical stage..
and he still is..
as i post this entry..

i couldn't bear to look at him..
even though i was never close...
i still feel for him...
without him...
there's no me...

hmm..
as uncle did the short prayers...
tears started to roll down on everyone's cheeks..
especially those who were really close to him..
his children and my other cousins...

ermm..
i was just standing away..
looking through the glass panel...
i couldn't be inside with everyone else..
i was putting up a strong fight against my own emotions..
silently i did my own prayers...
but i just couldn't hold on..
i finally went into tears..

God..
i just don't want to see him suffer anymore..
im begging u..
please..

last...
let me quote what he told aunt before being brought to the hospital...

"...asal nak tunggu ambulance..
aku kan boleh jalan.....
jalan ke akhirat..."

Ousted

2008-11-23T00:43:00.001+08:00

hmm..
what a day...
2 hrs of my time spent at the starbucks...
alone..
with no company..
except the magazine and a cup of iced caramel macchiato
lookin forward to meet them again..
but guess i wasnt needed..
i shouldnt be there either..
could have just sit at home to recover..
i felt so left out...
was it me...
or..
was it them...

erm...
i'll just let the matter rest...
no point bringin it up...
coz i jus dun wish to hurt or argue with anyone...
it aint worth my time...

forgive me if i was wrong...
im sorry..

much love...
newagedazri

The Official Post

2008-11-22T12:19:00.001+08:00

hmm..
i guessed..
we're 3/4 complete..
ready for the competition..
mentally and physically fit..
sweats and tears have all gone out..
we were so committed..
we chose to be in the team..
no one forced us to train that hard..
ICT was gonna be an extra boost for us..
for us to make ourselves better...

but then...
at times..
things may happen out of our control..
we soon got afraid..
we're directionless rite now..
some of us wanted this so much..
that now..
we're fearing for the worst...
we 're scared that our drive, passion and hunger..
is not strong enough for us to hold on till the next competition...

erm..
on a lighter note...
we'll be able to sit down and review our plans..
our goals especially...
training intensity may decrease..
but we are planning to step up the amount of effort we have been putting in for the past one month..

now..
it's the best time for us to lapse everyone..
we need to be the "cream of the crop"..
we need to be the toughest men..
enduring and excelling tough trainings..
we'll live through this..

bros..
no worrries aite..
heads up high..
coz we know what we want..
everything else is a side show..
let's not allow anything to distract or bother us..
we're always in control of ourselves..
our emotions..
just remember...

if our dream is big enough..
we must be willing to look like a fool to pursue it..

much love....
newagedazri

The Beginning

2008-11-22T01:23:00.001+08:00

hmm...
i've been stayin up late for the past few days..
been rather bored...
so today..
i've made up my mind..
to..
start..
a blog...

hmm...
now..
i'm officially a blogger..
i dun realli noe why im doing this...
im like against the idea of expressing my thoughts and feelings to the public...
but im still here...
who cares anyway..

ouh...
last...
at times i may be insensitive with my entries...
hmm..
if u're reading this post of mine...
and u dun like me here...
or u hate the things im abt to say later on...
go away please...
cuz i'll just not entertain u...
fucktards...

so ya...
that's all for now...
not feeling that "productive"...
ermm.....
wait patiently for my first official entry aite....
till then..

much love...
newagedazri